My first psychedelics session was the most profound experience I’ve had to date.
It wasn’t to enjoy myself while partying but rather with the intention to learn to love everyone better.
It took about 30 – 40 minutes to hit me and the first thing that popped into my head was my dad’s face. I couldn’t understand why the image of my dad kept coming up when he played such a significant role in my trauma and I was there to learn more love.
For those of you who aren’t aware, my dad passed away when I was 15 years old from alcohol abuse. I didn’t blame my dad or judge him for this, but I also didn’t love him for it.
If the love for one of your parents is messed up, then the rest of the line will be messed up too.
Lying there, not able to get the image of my dad out of my head, I decided to go with it and see what would come of it. If I was there to learn how to love more, then there needed to be a link between my dad and my intention.
I kept wondering how I could love my dad any more than I did when most of my memories were filled with him being an alcoholic.
So I decided to put myself in his shoes. I became my dad during that experience.
At 12 years old, my dad heard a gunshot and ran into the room to discover that his father had shot himself. He was the first person to see this traumatic image and it never left him. He’d suffer through it for the rest of his life.
As I relived this moment as my father in my session, I felt the feelings that he felt at that moment and in the days that followed this event.
My father was a broken child because of this, the only thing that I could do was to love him. How could I not?
Living through this completely changed the way that I viewed my father. No longer did I see him as the alcoholic, but rather as the 12-year-old who’d never come to terms with his trauma. This day marked something big…and it changed my entire life.
In the USA alone, there are 8 million people that suffer from PTSD. There was a study done where 107 people who had suffered from PTSD for an average of 17.8 years were given psychedelics under supervision, followed by therapy. After just two months, 56 participants no longer qualified for PTSD, and after 12 months that number rose to 68%.
What psychedelics does, is get to the root cause of the trauma, unlike pharmaceuticals which mask the symptoms.
It releases serotonin (which makes you feel good), oxytocin (the cuddle chemical), and turns down the amygdala (the part of your brain that creates fear). This enables you to revisit that memory, restructure how you feel about it, and attach a new emotion to it.
I’m not saying go out and do it right now as it’s not legal in the US yet, but it will be soon, at least I hope it will because I truly believe that it has the capability of changing humankind.